Allow me to introduce myself. The name's Erika; welcome to my blog / vlog and it's nice to meet ya if you found your way to this site. If you're a friend of mine and you're here for the support - thank you. I see you and love you for it. Thanks for taking the time to read / watch my future ramblings that I'll post from time to time. Posts will be about various things I'm working through: self healing, personal growth, mental health, physical health, my joys, my set backs and whatever I feel I need to get off my chest.
I used to be very active when it came to online journaling several years ago, especially when it came to my traveling adventures while living in Europe with my husband and son. Since moving back to the United States, various life events...multiple family deaths in close succession, medical scares, my personal battle with depression and PTSD has kept me from wanting to write any further because ..to be honest - why would strangers care about what's going on in my life? Know what I mean? Everyone has struggles and they manage to get through it one way or another, right? So what's so special about my story? Nothing. Nothing's special about me; I'm just trying to enjoy this life I've been given, folks. After enough struggling, I figured I'd be open about what it's like to have things ricocheting in my head - surely I'm not the only one who feels the way I feel. Do I have a terrible life? Far from it. But, the emotional things I struggle with daily have impacted how I go forward in this life and I'm looking for ways to rectify that.
Looking back at all the pictures I've taken of things throughout my adventures, the friends I've made (and lost), the achievements, the set backs... they hit hard some days. I was living my life back in the day and actually enjoying what new challenges came my way. These days...not so much. Actually, not at all. I've become an introvert, I don't go anywhere anymore, whatever I post on my Facebook is basically filler BS of memes and one liners, I no longer have the patience for most people, I'm always bracing to be let down which is why I don't have expectations anymore (for me, expectations lead to future disappointments), and I've slowly disconnected from folks near and far. I've hurt people because I've stopped putting out the effort with them; it's not that they're not worth it...it's just exhausting to me most days and it's hard for me to enjoy the moment. I'm there, but not there. Anxiety is a bitch, lemme tell ya.
With that being said.. welcome to the onion that is me; time to start peeling back the layers.
